Inside I'm screaming 'I love you'

Wednesday, March 23, 2005

I really want a turn-back-time machine. )x

Some memories just got stuck on my head today while I was alone. As I look back, comparing the present and the past, she's happier with her than the times she was with me. I realised I bought her much pain and sufferings. She had to suffer herself to give me the best, all this while. But all along I didn't know, until this very day. Sigh. But well, I'm glad things turn out this way for her. I don't have any evil thoughts or whatever. I just wanna see her happy, I'm happy enough, even though the one I love isn't her anymore.

For one, I never loved someone so much before. For two, this is the first time I ever have someone that got stucked in my head for coming two months. (not that I still love her, yes?)

It's so weird to look into her eyes again. Memories would just come chasing after me. I don't want. I told myself I'm out of love. Really OUT already. I don't want those memories to come back again. I know it would take quite some time for it to recover. Sigh.

Okay, drop the topic. School is rather crazy today. Ms Sek is a perfectionist. -screams. GRRR. Everything she does, she wants perfection in it, which make her students( like me?) go crazy. And I didn't know there's such thing as re-corrections? I had never done it before. But Ms Sek taught me to do it! GRR. Okay, whatever.

I'm outta here. x)

I don't want you back.

; stick with you